September 23rd, 2006
|05:54 pm - wow...a moment to sit down and type....|
What a busy time it's been!
I have a full time job, and then, a part time job. I stay at my sweetheart's all the time now and only come to the apartment when i need something from here. :)
I love having wheels because I can go so many places now. I would never have been able to have a 2nd job w/o the wheels. (Funny thing though....I needed the 2nd job to keep the wheels! :P)
And life for me is better than I can ever remember. I feel like it must all be a great dream and someday I'll wake up.
I am so grateful.
I feel so humbled that I was given this blessing called life. The moments of my past: agony and pain, joy and happiness, loss, misunderstanding, stubborness... all seemed so incomprehensible. I remember telling myself "Everything happens for a reason." In my younger way, I truly believed it. It was immature and more a statement of faith rather than actually having knowledge of it's truth.
The moment of understanding occurred the moment that I learned how I was truly a person who was deserving of life and love, just as we all are. That even though there is pain, there is a reason we go through it. It is to prepare us and strengthen us from pupae to butterfly.
The butterfly moment - I believe we all have one. I think we can only arrive there when we become honest and outside the self.
For those who love God, this is what I would say, for my Creator loves all and is bigger than what people call "God" today. But this is what I was told to write: "When we truly want what Creator wants, we will finally be happy."
Current Location: home is where the heart is
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Reveille - Ode à l'Acadie
August 1st, 2006
|10:11 pm - Guess who has no fever today??|
What an awesome day it has been. Yesterday, I had a really bad one with the kidney infection and all eating away at my immune system. I even cried like a baby with the pain. Ah well, prescription meds are helping with that.
But I was able to bring it down, then I felt inspired, and decided to CLEAN THE APARTMENT. (Mothers and fathers gasp in horror as they try and cover the ears of their children...pulling them away from me frantically in a sort of cacophonous panic.....)
Although unfinished, it is a world of difference. My sweetheart was so shocked and impressed, he said "What in the WORLD happened here?" (He was here the day before...less than 24hrs. :) I was happy and proud of it too, even though I didn't go to bed. It was worth it, and I'll sleep excellently tonight. :P *heehee*
And to top it off, I got my WHEELS!!! Yep. You heard me right. Got the car. I know it's going to cost me a lot, but I am no longer confined to the city limits. By the end of August, it will be totally mine. BOOYAH!!
So I am maxing and relaxing, enjoying life knowing I have a great friend just 2 floors up from me, the love of my life discovered, great little ones, and a totally open horizon for the future.
Current Location: Home sweet home
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Les petits riens
July 31st, 2006
|08:00 pm - my brains are mush|
my very first journal entry... and i still don't have a brain. it's been about a week since my kidney infection started, and I've kinda been, well, out of it. but it's nice to have jilly here and spend time with her since i can't really walk faster than 20 metres per hour. so in order for me to keep up, we decided to sit down in the good ol' apartment.
she's showed me how to get onto LJ and stuff, so maybe when my brain grows back, i may become inspired enough to put something interesting enough to keep y'all interested.
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Is this Love - Bob Marley